Lately I’ve been going through a lot in life. Since COVID hit and really even before that I’ve been feeling extremely depressed, anxiety consistently through the roof, and extremely lonely. In the midst of everything, my marriage is effectively done for and are in the process of filing for divorce. Adding to my already long list of emotional problems.
Alongside that I’ve picked up what I believe to be a sex addiction as I am constantly seeking out my next “fix”. I’ve had multiple partners in the past month alone, and I’ve been caving to my carnal instinct and craving more and more. Thankfully I’ve been seeking the correct medical attention to help address some of these issues, but, I feel like if left unchecked this could lead to much more serious problems down the road.
Ultimately what really has been getting me, is I feel like I’m slipping away from God. I have not been feeling His love, in fact I’ve quite often felt completely alone, abandoned, and cries for help ignored. I still trust in Him but feel that fading and I don’t want to lose that or the love I have for Him.
Prayers that would help me overcome these dark feelings, my increasingly worsening addiction to sex, and rekindling the love & trust for God would be most welcome. I’ve just been going through a lot lately and I don’t like to ask for help but I felt compelled to reach out to the NLC Community.